Do you ever have those days? I didn't think I did... until today. Suffice it to say, Envy jumped me like an Italian hitman and took me down. Hard. I tried to put up a fight, but have you seen my muscles? No? Me neither.
Sure, I get a little sad when I see other people making headway with their novels while I remain buried beneath textbooks and assignments. But in all honesty, I've never been jealous over it before. Heck, I'm always excited for them! I see school as #1 on my priorities list for the moment; therefore, I try not to dwell on the fact that my writing has to be set aside most of the time.
This weekend, however, has not been good. I won't go into the gory details, but I will say that I was surrounded by negativity all of yesterday.* So today when I signed onto blogger and snooped around, I was not in the best of moods. Tired, a little bit cranky, and dreading going back to school, I was already having troubles wanting to write. But then I came across not one, but two blogs where the author had just recently received an offer of representation from well known Agents. That wasn't the bad part. I'm genuinely happy for them. The bad part came when I realized they were both younger than me.
Now yes, I know I'm still only 19. I've got years ahead of me, but I'm just a little bummed is all. This is the first time I've felt that evil little green monster sneak up on me and it truly caught me off guard. Pushed me flat on my arse it did-- and the ground is quite cold right now.**
So I guess my question for you writers who have been at this longer than I have is, how do you deal with these feelings? Even if you're not a writer, any and all suggestions would be welcome.
*Not my parents.
** It's snowing.